Venting

I'm just venting today because I'm sure everyone around me is sick of listening to me complain.
I'm just so bothered by Hayden and his anxiety when it comes to being separated from me!
On the one hand, I'm so happy him and I have such a strong bond but on the other hand it's heartbreaking to live through.

Now, what 8 weeks back to work and he still cries EVERY morning. Every morning I drive to work feeling terrible and occasionally have a cry myself and then left to think about it all day.

This past weekend we visited Oma and Nono and Hayden thought I was going to leave him there and flipped out! I then tried putting him down for a nap and he screamed in a way that I have never heard before.

What do I do? No, seriously! What do I do? I have to work but this is ridiculous.

Now, on the up side I'm told he does settle down once I'm gone and has a good day (well that's when he's not catching yet another cold from some dirty child spreading germs all over him). ahem... can you tell I have issues????

AND... with all this being said, he is starting to become... how should I put this... "bitchy!". Can a mom say that about her child? Well I just did. I'm seven months pregnant and I just did. Love him but he had developed this attitude and voice in the last month and seems to protest whenever he can. Don't get me going on that chapter bc those who follow this will find me very scary.

Is this normal? Am I normal?

On the flip side of news, he no longer yells at me for putting him to bed. That phase came and went after a few weeks thank god.

Whoever said this mom thing was easy?

Ladies, the first 11 months were a picnic compared to this new challenge. However, he is 1 and I am 32..

I will win this battle!!!

Eventful week!

Well first I have start this blog off by saying "Happy 1st birthday Hayden!"  So hard to believe my little guy already turned one last Saturday.  Really, where did the year go?  Just looking back on some of my entries this last year, I had to laugh.  In such a short time he's changed so much, and I'm sure Marcus and I have changed as well. 

 Some good days some hard days.....  Small things make me laugh, like thinking back to that feeling after a long day at home with Hayden let's say a day with a tummy ache.  You sit and wait and wait for your husband to get home so you can hand the baby over so you can take a shower for the day (at 6:00pm).  My girlfriend summed it up when she said to me that mowing the lawn some days is a party, we'll take any break offered.

But then you have those other moments which come more and more frequent like right now. As I type Hayden crawls over to me in the midst of his play to give me a hug.  

12 months together and I wouldn't change any of it.

This last weekend was busy! We moved Friday morning from a house built for two into a home built for a family... thank the lord! Just a few streets away which is great because we really love the area and have made a ton of friends. 

We dropped Hayden off and Oma and Nonos place so could move, unpack, set up his bed fast! Sadly I did not get to wake him up myself on his first birthday but Oma and Nono sang him happy birthday.  

The next morning we picked him up and I figured out pretty quickly after being told he had a rough night that he had his first ear infection.  Thanks to some homeopathic ear infection remedies we were able to sooth him and hold him over until Monday when we could see our dr.

A sick guy for a few days but he was well looked after between Marcus myself and nana.

Now here we are a week later all settled in and ready for some "down time" (whatever that is) before #2 (who still doesn't have a name) comes along!

Months of preparation of selling, buying and moving into a new home are now over!!!!